the rest of our story…

I owe my 10 readers a HUGE apology.  It was never my intention to leave you hanging on our story.  I did warn you that I’m horrible at finishing series that I start.  I realize that in speaking that I’m bad about that sort-of set me up for failure in that area. ;)

I may have mentioned I joined a small group this semester called Heavenly Homes.  It’s led by Joanne.  Joanne is a mentor in my  life and there are no words to express to you how amazing she is.  Every word that comes out of her mouth is simply amazing.  I’m so glad I have her in my life when I can’t be face to face with my mom all the time.  I had said on many occasions to many that everyone needs a Joanne in their life.  :)  Now, YOU can have a little Joanne in your life!  She has a blog and she’s blogging every week about our small group sessions!!!  I love the title of her blog — Only A Few Things Matter.  One thing that Joanne has taught me is to step back and look at the situation at hand…..to ask myself, “Will this matter in 100 years?”  When you look at your circumstances that way, it really puts things in perspective.  Most of the time, the answer to that question is “No”.   In 100 years I will be in Heaven dancing with the Lord.  Very few things really do matter. When I get a “yes” to that question, I know that is something in my life that I need to put my time and energy into.  Something that will make an eternal impact.  Something that will grow God’s Kingdom.  I love my new perspective.  You can find Joanne’s lovely blog HERE.

I need to be really transparent here.  The past few weeks I’ve really been struggling with depression.  Depression is something I rarely struggle with and it’s bothering me that I’m even struggling with it.  I have all the symptoms and just can’t shake it.  I can’t even put my finger on one particular thing that is causing my sadness, nervousness, despair, fatigue, weariness.  I truly believe that God is bigger than depression and with God all things are possible; with God I can overcome depression.  God’s word tell us the enemy comes during the night to kill, steal and destroy.  The enemy is just waiting for that way into our  mind.  Any little crack we open by speaking negative words of doubt gives him a way into our minds.  The enemy will attain a grip by footholds of weaknesses in my life.  I also know that the Holy Spirit has revealed a lot of sin in my life the past few weeks….areas in my life that were contributing to problems in other areas in my life.  I’m praying through it.  I’m trying to decipher between the thoughts that are coming from the Holy Spirit concerning sin in my  life or an attack because I’m feeling tired, defeated and weak lately.  The truth is that either way, the thoughts need to be replaced with scripture…..

I am a child of God (John 1:12)
I am a member of Christ’s body (1 Corinthians 12:27)
I am sure that all things work together for good (Romans 8:28)
I have purpose & have been anointed by God (2 Corinthians 1:21-22)
I am confident that God has begun works in me (Philippians 1:6)
I have not been gifted a spirit of fear (depression, anger, jealously, unworthiness, etc.), but a spirit of power, love and self-discipline (2 Timothy 1:7)
I am blessed with every spiritual blessing (Ephesians 1:3)
I have an abundance of God’s grace without any limitations or resections (Ephesians 1:5,8)
I am the salt and light (Matthew 5:13-14)
I am chosen and God delights in bearing fruit in me (John 15:1,5)
I am seated next to Christ in the Heavenly realms (Ephesians 2:6)
I have peace (Ephesians 2:4)
I have direct access to our Heavenly Father (Ephesians 2:8)
I have confidence there is a purpose for my sufferings (Ephesians 3:13)
I am called (Timothy 1:9)
I can and will have a new way of life (Ephesians 4:21-32)
I can and will honor God with my marriage (Ephesians 5:22-33)
I can and will parent my children in a calm, loving way (Ephesians 6:4)
I am promised a full and eternal life (John 6:47, John 10:10)
I have victory in Jesus (1 John 5:4)
just to name a few….

My desire is to do just that, every day, a hundred times a day if needed.  I also desire to touch and help someone else with this post today.  Join me in declaring these scriptures over our lives, remember that Jesus is bigger than depression, fear, anxiety, addiction, divorce, abortion, abuse….He is bigger and His love is deeper, wider, longer than we feel we can comprehend but we can.  And we will receive it!

About the rest of our story.  I have a strong desire to share the rest (the best) with you and I hope you’ll give me some grace on the matter.  I have a deep desire to write and share what’s on my heart and God is working in me so much just since starting this process.  I’ve had to really just stop and stand in awe of the wow factor of it all.  The best part is, even though my circumstances may not change (or they may actually get worse with bigger things thrown my way), my God remains the same and bigger than my circumstances and bigger than yours, too.  We have the tools, power and love to glance at our circumstances with a different perspective and gaze at God in awe and belief of what He has in store because of our struggles.  Can I get an Amen?! ;)

I’ve missed y’all and I’ve missed sharing and writing even more.  I knew my place was at home, off the computer and with my family these past few weeks and I’m so glad I didn’t feel torn.  I’m thankful I could put my priorities in order.  I’m really glad I’m in the place I am spiritually; glad to know I can and will overcome the feelings of despair.  Hoping to declare these things daily as God does the work He’s planned to do.

Comments

  1. shauna fisher says:

    Welcome back friend!! It was a wonderful post as always!! Love the list of scripture! I’ll be referring back to that often! Depression is normal sometimes! Like when we spoke about it with regard to me a few weeks ago. Sometimes, it just overcomes you but you are reminding yourself of all of the right things and I pray you’ll feel better soon! Having the clarity of mind to remind yourself of those scriptures even during a depressed phase is really great! Shows you’re even stronger than you knew and that you have a wonderful relationship with the Lord! I’m praying for you and I love you to pieces!!! :)

  2. I just want to thank you for your blog! I check in quite frequently to read to catch some inspiration. So many things are also going on in my life, and it’s comforting to know I’m not the only one. Praying for you guys!

  3. Beth Watkins says:

    I love this blog-its so real!! Thanks for sharing. You put words to how I am feeling these days….I love the list of verses.

  4. Tiffany Nagy says:

    Hey friend! I just want to remind you that the Holy Spirit corrects us, but He does it with dignity, love and with a solution. He disciplines us with encouragement of who HE MADE US TO BE. He NEVER condemns, makes us feel guilty or critisizes us. Those are lies, masked in a glimmer of light. I know you know this… I just wanted to remind you. I love you and praying for you daily! xoxo

  5. Tiffany Nagy says:

    and one more thing… I love the scripture!

  6. Tara Lowry says:

    I loved reading about your son being healed. praise JESUS.
    Healing is a mystery.

    I’ve had chronic back pain for years…and this year has been an all time high year of pain, but God is good, and he draws me to himself in the pain.

    I’m forced to see his bigness and my smallness.
    still. I want to be healed.

    your story is beautiful.
    praying for you tonight in the struggle with depression…i get it.

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